Okay. I've been a fool,i've made mistakes. I'm leaving through this mess i've created trying to build myself up from here. Yeah I could've had it easier but it's not the case. What's important is what I do now though. I'm going to buil a good foundation for the years to come. I'm working hard and i'm disciplined enough to make it work. But I feel so alone right now. I wish I had someone who would just listen and console me to talk to. No,"yes but honey,you are to blame". Just warm arms to keep me safe. Till then i'll be courageous and keep put the front of a warrioress.
I know I can't give you what you need, hell I don't even know if you see me as potentially anything else than what I am to you,but I know that when you'll find your special heart a little piece of my heart will pass away.
I wish I could hide away,Hide in a place safe from tears and fears,hide in a place where nothing harmful can happen to me,hide in a place where nobody's there to even notice me.I wish I was a kid.Being and adult is too much pain too take. I wish I didn't have any decisions to make.I wish I could start my life all over again.I wish I didn't have to argue with the people I love all the time.I wish..I wish somebody was there who only cared about me and about whether or not I was okay.I wish there's someone out there for me who cares that i'm lonely and heartbroken and who doesn't mind my foolish actions,and who thinks my indecision can be cute,and who tries to bring me up and further rather than down and under.I wish there was somebody who cared just about me and I would care just about him. I wish I had a friend I could tell anything to. I wish there was someone I could always rely on.I wish I could sleep my problems away.I wish I could make my dreams come true and live a happy life.I wish I wasn't sad anymore.I wish so many things,yet I know that if I don't move nothing I wish will come true.I know that I will have to fight against life itself trying to bring me down from all sides if I want be it only one wish i've formulated to come true. It is a fight,or I die.